Trying to make it right

This has been a very emotional time in my life. I want to thank my friends who were there for me. Reaching out the hand of a friend. I am not good at asking for help yet my friends know when I need it. Thank you again. My life seems to be getting back on track. I am thankful and greatful.

The Devil came to visit

I am truly sad the devil came to my house and I was unable to defend against it. A family for nine years has been destroyed. From the first day that the devil arrived I was against it but in my foolishness to make my partner happy I allowed this devil into our lives. I take full responsibility with that comes change I am now a single dad of 4 great beings I will do my best to nourish them and make it in life. I know it will be a struggle and the emotions are already here. All day I see the sadness in the eyes. The pain of missing a love one. I am not the greatest man on earth nor the best person to be around. I am loyal and faithful. I am devoted to family and honest. This is were I failed instead of being honest I allowed personalty before principles and I must now pay a price. I have loved a man for 9 years the good the bad the hurt the happiness. I pledge to walk thru life with him to be there no matter what today I awake alone lost and in pain. The person I love is not here but the devil is. It is a sad day. It is a hurtful day.

life

Hi all it has been a while since I have wrote anything.

Alot has changed since I lase wrote. I want to say first I love my life.

I am sitting out by my pool relaxing to the sounds and taking a moment to have peace.

Life is a gift I dont get to enjoy much and I miss Patrick alot. I have decided to find time to find my self. We are living in one of the most beautiful places on earth. We have no more roommates and it is nice. I know as long as I put God first and get out of his way things will only get better. I am trying to learn not to have the need to be in control all the time. Wow what a relief it is to know the world can exist with out my help.

Rememberance

I am the luckiest Man in the world.
Thank you Tom,
Thank you for believing in me when no one else did.
Thank you for loving me when I could not.
Tonight I remember the love and am blessed to have you in my life

Wonder

My man is my wonder. My wonder Man, The man who makes me wonder. The wonderful man in my life. He is wonderful. So much shit has gone in our life yet somehow we survive. We have a few very dear friends who are there for us we are truly blessed. I am truly blessed.

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Choice

As i long in the night sky,I pondered the reason why.
I know the answer is all around yet at times I allow my pride, my fear, the feelings I hide inside to cloud my vision of truth. Life is not a privilege but a gift. As my cats lay perched on there tree cuddled together my dogs one in bed here with me the other downstairs to keep watch over Tom. My life for a moment is like the breeze of the night. If I allow myself to dream and to relax I can have the peace I so long for. It is written we shall return from were we came from it is that moment when I shut of my head when I trust as my cats that I return and know true peace. When as a eagle soaring across the sky wings stretched out and flowing in a jet stream spanning great distance with little effort. That peace that choice to let go and flow with nature with life to move forward and trust. The choice to be free, the choice to dream, the choice to chose. Life the gift of love. Life the freedom to believe. Life is a moment in time multiplied by a unknown and equal to my actions divided by others reactions. My life today is a choice a choice to be free or in bondage. A choice to give or take, to love or hate. It is I who will decide to honor the gift of life or decimate it.