Hello World

Greetings my friends the close of the year is upon us. We are in the season of celebration and Peace. IN this crazy world it is important to remember all the great things we have.
For me it is life, Sobriety, Tom, my kids, My pets, a job, friends close and far. The ability to enjoy life.
I have tried to look at life's in others eyes and failed. I have tried to close my eyes but life was still in session. I have learned that life is a great gift that we all can be grateful for or attempt to destroy. My family will one day be gone my friends come and go. The good the bad the great the least all are only for a moment yet life is always there. It is the very essence of life that allows me to grow. life is the breath to my thoughts the blood to my heart the tears to my pain. The laughter to my joy. Life is not a giver or a take life is constant it is us the vessels that life en voles into that make the choices to appreciate or destroy. Life the greatest gift.

Life is as a newborn pure and Innocent. neither knows wrong or right. Like a snow flake always different never the same. Humans have the ability to make life as we chose. If we pervert it then life will be perverted if we honor it then life will be honored. I was giving the gift of life to respect and cherish and in return I will be respected and cherished. The past I have not respected nor cherished this gift and today I have been giving a new chapter. Thank you

The end

life is so strange. I wonder how people ever make it each day. There is poverty pain and loss each day and yet people continue. Hate fuels drive and that is wrong. The world has became a place of evil. The world has become the playground of hurt, and pain. When people try and make it better somethng always makes it worse. I have tried to make myself a better person only to be told I am a evil person. I am sure I will survie yeta part of my heart has been removed. I have to make choices that can affect so many yet this is one time I dont want to.

thanks life

HELP

OK so I went to kansas and I got to spend time wiht my daughters and sister that was great came home that was great Tom brought Steinbeck to get me. Very thoughtful. I love both them

Well friday my sister calls me and her ex husband was acting like a jerk cause I did not go to see him and he was taking it out on my daughters. I am helpless and it pisses me off I was pissed all week end cause I can not do anything. I want to protect them and I know my sister will but why is he being a jerk. And then On saturday Tom and I get in to a fight over stupid ass shit and he dont understand It has nothing to do with him. I am sitting at work stressed about so many things tried to tlk to him he wont talk back I cant do my job wiht all this stress and then if I dont we dont make money and lose all our stuff I hate life today and it is not right what was a good thing one singel jerk turned it into hell. i hate him so much right now. not Tom my sisters ex husband

Sitting on the airplane

I am luckey the plane is not full so I have room a chick cut me off to get the door seat I wanted to get mad but that's life.



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LAX

Well today is a first for me.
I amflying to Kansas to meet my daughters who are 13. This is the first time since they were infents. Also this is the first time I will be away from Tom, 4 days may not seem like a long time to some but when you have spent the last 7 years daily with someone a day can seem like enternity and a week can seem like a second. I know all will be ok and that god wil take care of all. I am sitting at LAX waiting to board a plane. the waiting area is getting busy I wonder were all these people are going.

A Nice Sunday Morning

Hello world listening to Diana Ross aint no mountain High anuff and just enjoying the life God has given me. It is a nice fall morning here in Corona. Not much going on Tom is working on some photos he went and did yesterday the boys are sleeping and at this very moment not a damn thing to complain about how nice In a few days I am headed to Kansas to see my daughters and sister I am doing better with it.